Sunday, July 31, 2011

Colbert and Wendy Kopp Video

I just watched this video this morning after reading about its existence in a book called Relentless Pursuit. This book chronicles the first year of 4 '05 L.A. Corps Members, and was given to me by my wonderful Political Science adviser as a gift upon receiving the senior award for my major. I'll talk more about the book later, along with a post about the recent happenings in my newly employed life.

But, you should watch this video. Not just because I love Colbert (of course he only ranks second to Jon Stewart in my top social and political media-satirists) and either Colbert couldn't find too much for which to comically criticize Kopp or he's just gotten more harsh over the years, but watch it because Wendy Kopp is awesome.


Note: This video is Stephen Colbert interviewing Teach for America founder, Wendy Kopp, in 2007. What I love about Kopp is that she's not your typical charismatic leader of a social revolution. She, in fact, is not a huge fan of public appearances and would much rather do all the behind the scenes work and let her organization get all the credit. No, she never taught in the classroom, but she literally was the sole individual who thought up the idea for TFA (as a college senior!). And I believe her unimposing character and total dedication to the mission absolves her of any criticism for never having taught in the classroom.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Back in Louisiana

So I've actually been back here for a week now, and done with institute for a week and a day, but haven't been in a particularly reflective mood to do any blogging. It's Saturday night, I kinda bailed on my plans, so I guess now is as good of a time as any to be reflective.

I cannot believe that only one week ago I had just gotten back from what everyone keeps saying is going to be one of the most rigorous things we'll ever do in TFA. All I can think is "eh, yeah it wasn't that bad." Of course I'm saying that with total and complete hindsight and there were so many days where I went out to get something for dinner and I thought to myself, "how easy would it be to just keep going on 61-North until I am far away, anywhere but this god-forsaken region. Or the days where I thought of more life-threatening and strange excuses why I couldn't get out of bed in the morning than I ever came up with in college to get out of going to class. But even without the hindsight, I hope that institute isn't one of the hardest things I'll have to do in my teaching career. Yes, it was challenging. Probably the most challenging thing I've ever done before, but it was a different sort of challenging; a very non-autonomous challenging.

Enough about institute though because I still kind of feel like it was a very long dream, and it didn't really happen. Also, I could probably talk all night about how all my students did not meet their end of summer goals (although some of them did, and about half didn't show up for the last week so potentially a lot more could have) and how much of a strong personal responsibility I feel about that, but I'm already feeling bad enough about bailing on my plans tonight - I don't need the weight of 16 fourth graders' futures hanging over my shoulders too.

Still no job on that front, but really please, stop worrying about me. I'm going to get a job. There's still two weeks until school starts and although that does not seem like a lot of time, it's a pretty big span of time in the TFA hiring world (or at least, so I've been told). But really, I'm fine. However, check back with me at the end of next week, and I might have developed somewhat of an increased frustrations and bitterness towards this all. At this point though, I'm just living the life down here. Well not really because I would love to be planning for the year, but there's no use stressing about something I have no control over.

I just finished up Round Zero, TFA orientation, whatever you want to call it. I call it hopefully the last time I have to sit in sessions all day for many consecutive days. Today we had our all-corps meeting with the 2010 CMs. It was pretty cool to have everyone together - this is the first time we've done that since getting to SLA. I'm excited to be part of this awesome corps and really start the year off!

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

The downside of institute

I am tired of living in a dorm and of eating (or not eating) dining hall food that I fairly consider the worst food I have eaten in my life. On that note, I am tired of not eating one full meal a day because a) I don't have to money to eat out every night and b) I am beyond being able to eat the food at the dining hall.

I am tired of staying up late, getting minimal sleep, preparing for school the next day, to have my students whine all morning about how tired they are and how they can't possibly stay awake during class. I'm up there teaching with less sleep than you. Believe me, you can do it.

I am tired of interview upon interview, of positive feedback, but no job.

I am tired of a perpetually messy classroom. Partly from students using the floor as their own personal organizer, but mainly from collab members using the ENTIRE ROOM as their own personal file cabinet. With no organizational system at all, might I add. It's no surprise students can't keep their papers organized with such a exemplar method of organization around them.

I am just tired. Of so many things. And now, I will return to my endless night of lesson planning, for my students. The reason I am so tired, but the reason I am here.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Ms. Gauthier, I'm gonna use it all over myself.

Oh, my students and the things that they say. The best excuses usually come when they want to go to the bathroom, which they know very well they can't use but after breakfast and at lunch. Yet somehow their bladder manages to get to a bursting point in the middle of class, which always amazes me because they don't drink anything between breakfast and lunch. It's most definitely the biggest obstacle to classroom management, after pencil sharpening, that is.

I cannot believe I'm halfway done with teaching summer school. So much of my feelings are excited, but I cannot help feeling overwhelmed that I have less than two weeks to move my students an amazing distance to be ready for fourth grade - some of my students are finally just getting good at subtraction, but they still need to multiply and divide to be on grade level.

I did have a slight break through with one of my students this week. Shantrecia is probably the furthest behind at everything, except for oral reading fluency. I'm not entirely sure how she got above grade level on that and still is missing essential K-2 skills. Like subtraction , for instance. Most of my students still count of their fingers, but at least they're counting on their fingers correctly. Shantrecia uses her fingers, but I'm not really sure what she's doing when she does because she still doesn't get the problem right. My FA has taken over working with her in our morning AIH time and made her subtraction flashcards that she never wants to put down anymore. Even though she's so behind, I think she responds well to having these flashcards because no one else gets them. Reading is what is presenting the biggest challenge, however. Give her a passage to read, and she can bust it out with expression, no mistakes, and quite quickly. However, ask her to tell you anything about what she just read, and I get blank stares. Nothing. I will give her the answer and then ask her the question again, and still nothing. She's a bright girl, and very well behaved, so she's not being defiant. My CMA suggested that I give her a specific question written on a post-it note to think about while we're reading, with the understanding that I'll be asking her that question when we conclude reading. I did that on Wednesday - I gave her the question "what is one main idea from the story we read today?" I explained to her what I wanted to hear with the question, and went over what a main idea is. And you know what, when we finished, I asked her that question and after one answer that wasn't quite on point, she gave another that was entirely correct! I almost jumped out of my seat because this is the first time that I have seen her comprehend anything she's read. You could tell she was pretty excited that she got this answer right. I kept referencing her answer through the read of AIH time (so let's remember the main idea that Shantrecia told us early; so how does that connect with the main idea Shantrecia told us earlier?) and the rest of the day I could really see an improvement in her confidence level. Of course, being the naive new teacher I am, I figured I had cracked her code and this post-it note method was the answer to all her comprehension problems. Not quite so. I tried this method again on Thursday, this time with a harder question - "what was the problem of the story we read today?" and I got blank stares again, even when I told her the answer, she still couldn't give it back to me. However, when I gave her sticky note at the beginning she was really excited and told me, "oh yes, my question!" I think I might have just gotten ahead of myself by pushing her to try to identify the problem of the story before she really had a grasp on the main idea. I'm going to stick with the main idea next week until I'm sure she has a grasp on it. Her confidence, though, has improved drastically since I started trying new methods of helping her to learn. Even when she's completely lost in class, she quietly works with the boy who sits next to her to understand it, then when it's independent work, she calls me over to help her. Her grades on the end of lesson assessments have gotten drastically better over the past week. Shantrecia still has a long way to go, but she's come so far in less than two weeks, I cannot wait to see where she is at the end.

We have the 4th of July off, so this is an exciting long weekend here in Cleveland. My roommate and I went to Memphis for the day yesterday just to get out of here. It's only two hours away and we needed to see real stores and have something to do that's non-TFA related. It was quite a success, and a great break. We spent a few hours at the Civil Rights Museum and the site of MLK's assassination. The majority of our day was spent at the mall, just so we could be in a mall again. I barely even bought anything, but having the opportunity to was quite wonderful. I was able to purchase a clipboard, which was probably the most exciting part of the day. I've been trying to get one since I got here (I really wasn't aware how much more effective your teaching can be with a simple piece of wood and metal clip) but Wal-Mart was sold out within hours of TFA descending on Cleveland and there is not a single other place in Cleveland that sells clipboards (yes, we asked). Oh, and the next closest place that sells them? A teacher supplies story an hour away. All I have to say is good luck to the TFA teachers placed in this area!

Tonight the whole town of Cleveland is throwing us a 4th of July party, complete with fireworks and flesh-eating mosquitoes. It seriously amazes me how much of a big deal it is to them that we're here for the summer. Our welcome party was a ton of fun, so I'm really looking forward to tonight.